The Beginning Of A Parallel Journey
You may remember that a few posts ago I wrote about deciding to go ahead and do some short term specialised trauma-focused counselling, parallel to the psychoanalytic therapy I am already doing with...
View ArticleNew Year, New Hopes – A Tiny Update
Don’t worry, I’ve not gone crazy.. At least not in the traditional sense.. Tonight at sun down is the Jewish new year, Rosh HaShanah, and I have to admit that I am kind of excited about it. I know that...
View ArticleTrauma Focused Counselling, Psychoanalytic Therapy & Bridging The Gap
By now I have had nine sessions with Z. Only, it’s turned out very different to what I had thought it would be. Two sessions ago Z. said that she felt concerned about us doing deep trauma-focused work,...
View ArticleBeing Safe vs. Feeling Safe – The Power Of The Past
Ever since my run-in with M. last week, I have been on extremely high alert. Like many people suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder I am hyper vigilant at the best of times, but in the last...
View ArticleA Fork In The Road – Choosing A Path
A. has been away since the Friday before last, and it feels like it has been our longest break ever. There is just something about this particular break that has felt sort of endless. Of course, this...
View ArticleScaffolding
I was supposed to be dead by now. It feels kind of strange to write it, but it is true, nonetheless. A little over four weeks ago was when it was supposed to happen. I had booked the hotel room where I...
View ArticleEndings: Standing On The Brink Of The Unknown
Being in therapy is being in a relationship. Therefore it follows that ending therapy is an as complex and complicated – and sometimes painful – process as ending any other relationship. There are...
View ArticleThe End Of A Relationship
I feel so desperately sad. Had my final session with A. earlier today. And I just want to cry. In fact I have been crying. A lot. It just feels awful. I hate the way things have ended, it doesn’t...
View ArticleSurviving An Ending: Starting Over
Finishing with A. was always going to be immensely painful and would inevitably leave me with a whole host of scary feelings, and nowhere to put them. So, in a bid to keep myself from harm’s way I...
View ArticleDaring To Trust
Today I did something that scared me, something that made me feel, something that needed me to be braver than I have ever been before. I shared something that I had never ever shared with anyone...
View ArticleTwenty-fourteen – A Year Of Changes & Challenges
I thought I’d make one final push to get an update out before the end of the year. I’m not in a great place, hence radio silence on most channels, but sometimes that’s when the best blog posts come...
View ArticleWhen Your Therapist Goes Away
Here we interrupt the regular scheduled programme for a Holiday Special: “When Your Therapist Abandons You” Yes, it’s here once again – that darkest time of the year when your therapist has almost...
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